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Love One Another

Four weeks into our outreach, my Titus team made a grueling thirty-hour train ride in order to spend a few weeks in Lugansk, an average sized city on the Russian border. In this grey, post-Soviet mining town, our contacts had arranged for us to teach a number of Inductive Bible Study seminars in the local churches. We started without delay. Our seminars were attended by Christians from varied theological backgrounds. In one particular seminar, we noted students from at least four different churches passionately studying God’s Word together and ecstatically sharing their discoveries. In this moment denomination differences meant nothing – Calivinism or Arminianism? Pre or Post Tribulation? Sprinkling or immersion? Women in ministry? Rapture? Tongues? These things which so often divide were never mentioned. There was only God’s Word, the joy of discovering its truth, and living it out together. On the right side of the room, a few rows from the front, sat a group of people that we referred to as “group number three”. Sitting around the desk were three women and one man. Each was in their mid-twenties and each from one of the four churches represented.

Throughout the seminar I watched as they worked together, studied together, congratulated each other over questions well answered, passionately shared their discoveries, chatted and joked through the breaks, and even exchanged phone numbers. The cherry on top of the cake was right after we had dismissed the students at our last session. As everyone rose to leave, I looked over and to my amazement “group three” remained seated, hands clasped tightly in a circle around their desks, Bibles in the middle, heads bowed in prayer. They were thanking God for His Word and their time together. Four churches, one Chief-Shepherd.

This profound and beautiful glimpse of the unifying power of God’s Word is one I will not quickly forget.

Soul Sickness: The Bible Is The Cure

One Sunday morning, my team mate Victoria taught the Inductive Method to a congregation in Bolivia. She finished by giving a final exhortation and asked them to join us at our next seminar at another church. When we arrived at our seminar we were pleased to see that a man named Juan had chosen to come. Juan was extremely quiet but greeted all of us with a customary kiss and warm embrace. This seminar ended up being the low point of the outreach. Attendance was less and less each night and those who came didn’t seem to be particularly eager to learn. Juan was there every night though, Bible and note book in hand, hanging on every word, eager to pray and take part in ministry times. God began to lay Juan on all of our hearts and we began to thank Him for our one faithful attendee. In our team prayer times we sensed that we were to teach with all our hearts, even if Juan was the only one who wanted to learn. His genuine hunger kept us going and we looked forward to seeing his smiling face each evening.

At the end of our seminar Juan asked to share his testimony. We learned that the Sunday Victoria spoke at his church he had been contemplating taking his life. Bad choices he had made had destroyed his family’s faith in him and his wife and children wanted to leave him. He asked the pastor for prayer and the pastor told him his soul was sick because of the way he had been living . He said that God’s Word was the medicine he needed and encouraged him to attend our Bible Overview seminar. God brought Juan to our seminar that week and each night He was faithful to teach Juan about His character and to challenge Him to live a godly life. Juan was so moved by what he learned that every night he went home and taught his family all that he had learned. The family repented and recommitted themselves to each other and to God. In closing, Juan said said he was so thankful that we had come to teach and that he was dedicating his life to learn as much as he could about God so that he could use that knowledge to change the lives of other families who are hurting just as his family was. After Juan finished sharing I reflected on all that he had said and came to a better understanding of what it means to teach. I realized that teaching is never about me, my ability or my plan but it is always about God. God sent five ordinary people from the United States to teach one man in Bolivia and through that one man I know that countless other lives will be transformed.

Hearing God When Making Decisions

Ryan thought he knew what to do. They offered him the biggest promotion of his life into a position he coveted. The salary and prestige would be everything he hoped for. But now, three different people in the church had cautioned him about taking this job. One didn’t know why, but that was their gut feeling. Another one gave him some logical reasons why he should reject the promotion. The new job would mean moving about 500 miles to the regional office headquarters. The kids were all doing well at school and Ryan had just joined the Governing Board of the church. So this person said it didn’t appear to be good timing to make the move. The third person said they heard God say this job would not turn out as well as Ryan hoped.

While Ryan pondered the input of these people, he and his wife received their latest Netflix movie in the mail; it was titled “Fun with Dick and Jane”. The story featured a guy who gets his dream job only to have his career come crashing down around him within a week. Ryan was afraid God was now using Netflix to tell him something.

But when he tried to pray about the situation, he felt like his prayers hit a lead-lined ceiling above him. God didn’t seem to respond to his prayers in any way he could discern. His mind waffled between believing this promotion offer was the blessing of God to feeling like he was being set up for a huge disaster. Ryan didn’t know how to separate what he wanted, what God wanted, and what the enemy wanted. He went to one of the pastors in the church for guidance. That pastor asked him if he had gone to the Lord about his decision. He moaned inwardly as he heard this. On his way home, he decided to just flip a coin. It seemed to make as much sense as anything else he was getting.

His biggest problem was he felt that God had let him down. I had spoken to a seminar he attended six months before, and he remembered I had said it is always toughest to hear God when we’re making decisions. He sat down the night before he had to give an answer to his company and sent me an email. He wanted me to help him hear what God was saying in all this. What I am going to share with you in the next few blog entries is a condensed version of a conversation he and I kept up over a few weeks.

Is There An Absolute Best Direction?

The first question we must settle is this: Does God have a perfect plan for our lives? If we answer yes, it begs the next question: Will that plan happen whether or not we go along with it? The first question talks about God’s Will. The second question addresses God’s Sovereignty. I believe I can answer both questions by looking at two significant, and parallel, sections of the Bible.

In Romans 8:26 and 27 we read, “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.” There are so many good truths to learn in this passage and it would take hours to delineate them all. But in point form, let’s notice the following truths that are explained here:

  1. We are weak in some way
  2. The Spirit of God helps us in our weakness
  3. The weakness relates to not knowing what we ought to pray for. (Note: There is an “ought” here. That means that any time we are seeking to pray and ask God for something, there is a right thing to pray and/or ask for).
  4. The help the Spirit of God gives us is in the form of praying on our behalf, interceding deep inside of us at a level that goes deeper than words.
  5. The one who is “searching our hearts” is also the same one who knows the mind of the Spirit. Only God knows that. Therefore, this is God.
  6. When the Spirit intercedes, it is exactly the will of God.
  7. Now the good part. Since we are being shown here as “weak”, we assume that we are getting help. So how does the Spirit praying without our being aware offer any help to us? If we were to find out what He is praying (and since he lives inside of us, that option is always there), we could agree with it and it would mean God would answer our prayers.
  8. This means that the perfect will of God does depend upon our at least being in agreement with it. It also implies that once we are in agreement with it and agree by talking to God about it, we will do what that will suggests. You can’t agree with the will of God and then not live accordingly. That is called “disagreeing with the will of God.”

The other passage of Scripture is similar to it. It is found in Hebrews 7:25 and is speaking of Jesus’ ministry to us in heaven: “Therefore, he is able to save completely those who come to God through him, because he always lives to intercede for them.” As in the previous passage, there is much to understand here, so let’s go through it in point form.

  1. The word “save” (sodzo) means to rescue, deliver and protect. This is not talking only about forgiveness of sins, but about continual protection.
  2. Saving completely suggests there is an incomplete salvation.
  3. We come to God through Him.
  4. He always lives to make intercession for us. (Note: some have said that this intercession refers to his blood which pays for our sins. But in several other places in Hebrews, we are told that his death was “once for all” and that it did not have to be continually repeated. Yet all the verbs in this verse are in the continuous present or perfect tenses in Greek which suggest that the intercession has ongoing results. This cannot be speaking about our sins being forgiven).
  5. He is interceding for us all the time.

Putting both of these passages together, we can draw these logical conclusions.

  1. There is a plan that God has for our lives.
  2. He wants us to know that plan so we can agree with it and find the salvation/protection/blessing God desires for us.
  3. We need to know that plan and it is something that Holy Spirit and Jesus (who always agree with each other) are right now praying for us.
  4. If we can find out what they are praying for us and agree with that prayer, God will set us on the right road.

I can see you saying, “that sounds easier said than done.” It is. That’s why we will keep looking at how this all works in the next segment.

Mexico Update

In the spring of 2013, David Garrigan and I joined 6 guys from Stanwood, Washington, Foursquare church in Santana, Mexico at Rancho Bantano. It is a big camp in the middle of the desert affiliated with the Free Methodists. This ministry is very busy throughout the year hosting church groups, women’s groups, retreats for pastors, and helping in many other ways to refresh and give rest to church workers. They also minister in their local community.

The Rancho Bantano camp began a building project in faith last winter, trusting God to provide the funds and labor to get the work done. Teams began signing up and helpers came from all over, just as the camp staff had been praying for. We were able to be a part of an answer to that prayer as our team arrived in March and we helped button up the building by installing the metal roofing, helped with the electrical, poured concrete, set doors and installed knobs along with a variety of other things. We were able to use our skills and labor to get the work done quickly, which was a blessing to the ministry and an answer to their prayers.

It was so rewarding to have a break from everyday life and use our construction skills to impact the Kingdom of God. I believe that, even though we can’t see the direct connection, our efforts are helping to change the lives of people.

Healing and Restoration Through Dance

One of the most beautiful things about having a relationship with God is the way He relates to you so personally.  Often times we hear or read about how He knows us better than we know ourselves but when we get to experience it first hand that’s when you know He really does know and love you intimately.  I began to understand this intimate love through dance, a language I believe God knows very well. Dancing has always been a part of my life, I started at age five and have never really stopped.  There was always something about dance that drew me to continue learning; little did I know that God would use dance to speak to me and bring healing when I needed it most.

In the summer of 2002 my youngest sister who was only a little over a year old was killed in a car accident.  My twelve year old self did not understand why God would allow such a horrible thing to happen to a family who loved and served Him.  I remember watching my Mom weep with groans so deep and my Dad cry harder than I had ever seen, it stirred my little heart to a place of bitterness.  A God who loved me would not allow such a tragedy.  So I ran from Him, became angry and bitter, and declared that He didn’t exist.  My family stuck together, became stronger, and still worshipped God with all their hearts, but I just couldn’t.  I continued taking dance classes and filling my time with things that felt fulfilling to me, yet still all the while completely broken inside.  Then a few years later my parents were approached by the pastors of our church and asked to share their story.  They agreed and asked if I would like to contribute a dance to conclude there time sharing.  Naturally I agreed, I would never pass up an opportunity to perform.  So, based on my parents’ suggestion, I picked a song that seemed applicable and choreographed a dance to it.

The night of the talk came and it felt like any other night. My parents spoke and then I came on stage and waited for the music to start.  As the music came on and I performed my first few steps something inside me began to break. Did I really believe the lyrics I was dancing to? Did God really know better than me? Could I let go of the need to know why?  God began to move in my heart and with every step I let go and opened the door of my heart.  And God came in, I sat on the stage weeping in front of everyone, not fully understanding what had happened.  I had just messed up the ending to my dance and was on my knees weeping in front of the entire church, yet I didn’t care, I was beginning to see how hurt I was and how the Father’s love could bring restoration.  After that night God began a process of healing within me. You see, we merely have to take one step towards God and He runs after us with relentless abandon. And He was after me, He wanted my healing more than I did.

I was able to perform that dance on several more occasions, each ending with the same result of a broken, weeping mess on the floor.  Yet each time I did that dance a little more of me was healed. God used my love for dance to speak to me.  He knows me! He knew that the only way to get to my heart was through movement.  God used dance to heal me, to speak to me intimately, and to restore my relationship with Him.  God knows us intimately and cares more about our wholeness than we do, His love is relentless, and I know I will see Him use me and my love for dance to bring restoration to others in the future.  What an amazing, loving God I serve.

Bringing Hope to Places, Hope Wasn’t Brought

To sum up this experience in just a few words, is more of a challenge than what I had heard. You see, I could talk about salvations and how whole churches were rocked. But to me outreach was something else, something more personal, not about numbering salvation numbers off. It was the worst place I’d ever been, the corruption, the hopelessness. However it was one of the most beautiful places I’d ever seen, and God gave us the privilege of bringing hope to the broken, the less. And it was beautiful, it was challenging, it was extravagant! But most of all it was spirit lead and God again, and again, proved his eternal glory and his intimate love. It’s funny how you can go into a place thinking it’s you pouring out the love. When it felt like all I did was receive, throughout everything we had done. By refreshing the saints or picking up children who had never had hope.

This is where it all started for me, when it became a little more serious and a little less joke. So what is it about “Hope” that changes a face, that changes a place or a heart? What is it about “Hope” that attaches itself to faith and becomes attractive from the start? Hope that’s for a king ,for a bed-ridden or even the average man. That hope that impacts anyone no matter where they stand. So what’s different about hope, compared to love, life or success? Because today I look around and see that hope and hope itself brings light to the darkest mess. You see hope didn’t start when there was the death on a tree, hope started when Christ rose from the death, thus creating hope…for you and for me.

Hope is the breaking of chains, a comfort to pain, the renewal and gain to what once seemed lost. It comes out of nowhere bringing care to the uncared, and this hope does not and will not ever cost. You see… when Christ died, he died for us all, becoming a part of the fall, falling deeper than us all, pushing us up from underneath to arise to out call!

This.Is.Hope.

That no matter what we face. What were seen as, talked about or known, that Hope is an outpour of love, for the lost, the broken and disowned. It’s this “Hope” that is for anyone, no matter where they stand. Wether from the slums of Rio, the richest of kings or even the average man. It’s this “Hope” that changes a face, that changes a place and changes the heart. It’s this hope that attaches itself to faith and is attractive from the start. Those children became our lives in the slums, attaching themselves wherever and whenever they could. To be honest it wasn’t really us at all, it’s because the love of Jesus, experienced for the first time, is really really good. So for me this was my outreach, bringing hope to the people more so than the place. Because seeing that trash can of a home they lived in, only highlighted the value written across each and every face.

I can honestly say I am totally transformed, something like writing this I never would have done. But God cared for the people just as much as me, and glory be to him for what he did in Rio, Niteroi, the Mountain Churches and the slums.

Christmas in Reykjavik

On Christmas Eve we went to another city to help out the salvation army with like a Christmas dinner that they do for refugees and people seeking political asylum (its like people who had to escape from their countries because of war and they cant live with the rest of the population or work, so they like do nothing). Anyways it was one of the most meaningful touching Christmas experiences of my life! I started by just talking to some young men that were there, they were from all over, Africa, Iran, Iraq, Afghanistan, Romania etc…they were so broken and hopeless. No one wanted them, loved them, and now they were stuck in Iceland! It was like prison to them. My heart broke for them because my dad was exactly like them. Here is my dads story: During the Vietnam War my dad was sent to Poland to study ship engineering. While he was studying he fell in love with the west and europe and freedom and he didnt want to go back. So he escaped and fled and spent many years running and hiding from the police. He ended up in a refugee camp in Austria just like these guys in Iceland. Then on Christmas Eve some YWAMers came to the camp and was sharing the Christmas Gospel with him and he gave his heart to God because he was so hopeless. A few weeks later he was accepted to go to Canada and thats why I am here now!

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So now here I am, 30 years later talking to guys who were in my dad’s shoes…on Christmas Eve! It was like I went back in time and was looking at my Dad! It was so crazy and I was so moved. Before the dinner I was asked to share the Christmas Gospel with them. When I was sharing it I almost started to cry because I thought that if someone like me didn’t come and share God’s love with my dad I might not be here or living a different kind of life. And then I read a part of the Christmas story that my dad says changed his life forever and I almost couldn’t read it cause my throat was all choked up! It was so so so amazing…remember how we were talking about how God prepares us? Even years before? It was what I was thinking, so amazing! How I was born into a family of an immigrant refugee, and now I can relate to these guys and have power to speak into their situation that others dont have! It was a huge blessing and some of the guys that were there were so encouraged and blessed and felt God’s love on Christmas to me I felt more blessed and God was so good and I felt so close to my father and my parents even though we are so far away.

 

Waka Waka – This is Africa

T.I.A – This is Africa. We have the hot African sun, shark infested waters off the coast, the southern most tip of the continent is home, stoplights are called robots, and we have all the time in the world. This is a little look at what has been going on.

Its a lot like home. From the moment we arrived in Cape Town we realized that culture is not very different than what were used to. Modernized, globalized, and even trendy are some of the words I would use to describe the environment, and who knew that they would even have indie/hipster food and craft markets too! The outward appearance seems similar but the people of South Africa are different. They have time, and value relationships higher than a planned schedule. They are friendly and willing to talk, which is really why we are here.

Our team of fourteen have been here since early Dec ‘’working the ground’’ in conversation and relationships, sharing life with people not as teachers but as learners. Our heart is to reach people, the rich, the poor, and anyone we meet. I feel like I have never talked to so many strangers in my life than my time here in south Africa. Its challenging. But here’s a little perspective.

I was in a group with my friends out for the day. It seemed ordinary and to be honest I wasn’t feeling very accomplished or even motivated due to my poor attitude, but I went out in faith that I had a message to share that is greater than my feelings. We pass an old wrinkled man who started to talk with us, trying to communicate his situation. He is a street sweeper. My friends started to talk with him, opening up, and showing compassion. I stood listening and watching his face. He was desperate and dry. And then the opportunity to share Jesus with this man came. I talked grace, forgiveness, and hope. It was simple and definitely not me. I felt the words I said were foreign or at least I wasn’t living them out in that moment because I was so concerned with my own issues and not concerned with the Savior. But here’s the incredible part. This is the reason why Im here. Despite my inadequacy in sharing the message of hope, it got through to him! It was as if, a light bulb turned on in a dark room, and there was for the first time a change in the man’s eyes. His demeanor had a look of mystery. He had never heard of such good news, that God wants to forgive him of his past! He drank in every word that was spoken. And a man who almost died of dehydration now had living water in him never to be thirsty again! I walked away with a deep sense of humility, for here I am a broken man ministering to another broken man. The only difference is that I found Jesus and I got to share him with the street sweeper.

Proverbs 25:25 “Like cold water to a weary soul is good news from a distant land.”

The Filipino Files

Ever get the thought “I am going to remember me saying, I’m going to remember this moment.”? And three weeks later you remember yourself saying that? Wow that’s some serious Inception but it’s like remembering the moment of setting off on a journey when you are finishing it. Three weeks have gone by like a typhoon here and it felt like as soon as we landed we are taking off again, but this time home. The heat and our busy lives seemed to compress our time into a baked little brick.

Three weeks ago I was also a different man. Looking ahead I realized this was going to be hard and I honestly was not looking forward to spending myself out here. Yes, it’s hot and very sticky and there was stuff I didn’t want to do and if I had it my way, I would hole myself up to an internet hub and log out of this part of life. But there was another thing called surrender and as soon as I realized we would be in it for the long haul, I gave myself up, called myself a weak man and asked God for strength. It’s an amazing thing when we not only surrender our entitlement but also ask God to help us do it. He actually does! From there on afterwards, ministry became a lot more fun and exciting. It actually surprised me how so many times prior to, I had relied on my own strength and wisdom to convey the gospel. Sure there were results but I was so burnt out and unwilling to take more steps. But in light of actually including God helping me here has been a mind-blowing revelation! When we are weak, he is strong, oh so very strong!

 

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The rest of our outreach pretty much revolved around the same schedule of and afternoon ministry sometimes accompanied with either a morning or an evening event. We continued to nurture the relationships we built and played all-hard-out with the street kids. They all knew us by name, I forgot most – they were so many! We continued to do more evangelism and started up playing basketball with the all-stars of Pali-Paran. We also started connecting with the churches and youth groups of the community, encouraging and strengthening their resolves. I had a great opportunity to preach one Sunday and wanted to let the Filipino church know the mission fields are not just out in the world, they are right outside our doorsteps. I could see the youth right here having so much potential to shine out loud in Pali-Paran. Our final night in this city ended with a three-hour youth service from four different churches. It was so cool to see such a unity and diversity in talent. But what really struck me was the Spirit of God on this place, no different from home, no different from heaven.

And so finally at the end of all things this outreach draws to a close, a good ending at that. There were times we so looked forward to coming home and now that home is very near we look back and long at the things we could have done. But that is alright. The most important part is ending off right. I feel so content packing my bags and playing Outreach UNO for the last time with my team. Now looking back I realize here was where I changed so much, yet again, and three weeks later.